i have recently been questioned, doubted, and mocked. i'd like to say it didn't or doesn't bother me, cause really, . . . ."What can man do to me?" (Psalm 56:11) . But unfortunately i am only human, so i have been hurt by these accusations.
The end result has left me with feelings of frustration, being emotionally exhausted, and clinging to my Lord and Savior. More than that, the feelings of guilt i have, that i allow myself to feel the pain bothers me.
i keep going over things in my head, what had i done to deserve all this hatred? What could i do to change this situation? Then i read these verses a few days later. . . .
"i said to myself, “i will watch what i do and not sin in what i say. i will hold my tongue when the ungodly are around me.” But as i stood there in silence— not even speaking of good things— the turmoil within me grew worse. The more i thought about it, the hotter i got, igniting a fire of words: “ LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered— how fleeting my life is.
And so, Lord, where do i put my hope? My only hope is in you. Rescue me from my rebellion. Do not let fools mock me. (Psalms 39:1-4, 7-8) .
How brilliantly put. Exactly how i was feeling. "Rescue me from my rebellion." i took that to mean not to sin in my anger. You see, it says in Ephesians 4:26 "in anger do not sin. . . . " don't let your emotions rule the situation. Don't let them muffle the sound of God's voice.
i knew being more vocal about my faith would result in naysayers and misguided anger thrown in my direction. i never in a million years could have seen what was coming at me. "Many have become my enemies without cause; those who hate me without reason are numerous. Those who repay my good with evil lodge accusations against me, though i seek only to do what is good."(Psalm 38:19-20)
i have decided to forgive, and move on. Ephesians 4:31 "Get rid of bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with everyform of malice."
i have realized i am not the enemy they seek. Their hatred is not something i have earned. 1 Samuel 8:7 "And the Lord told him: "Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their King." "You will be hated by everyone because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved." (Matthew 10:22).
if you have been hurt please remember this verse, and hold it close to your heart.. . 1 Peter 4 :16 "However, if you suffer as a Christain, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name."
And to those who have hurt you. . . . .
"May the Lord judge between you and me. And may the Lord avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you. " (1 Samuel 24:12).