i am wired this way, always have been. i hate sleep, because i'm always thinking of what i could be doing instead. (i normally stay up way too late with this thought process.)
So, that being said, praying is hard for me at times. i have been taught in order to pray, you must clear your mind, and focus on only God. Sounds easy enough for most, but two things i have a hard time doing are #1 clearing my mind, and #2 focusing. Unfortunately those are pretty much the most important parts. So, i was wondering, what did God think of my busy minded prayers? Could he sift through all my busy thoughts to find which ones were for Him? As i pondered this question, here is what i felt my answer was. . . .
(Now, before anyone starts throwing stones my direction, let me be clear. These are in my words, what i felt God was telling me. i am not telling anyone how to pray. i only write my experiences, not rules for anyone to follow).
First i was lead to Jeremiah 1:5 "Before i formed you in the womb i knew you, before you were born i set you apart." So, God knew me before i was even in my mothers womb! Wow! Pretty sure he knew how my mind would work, (considering he created it). i also feel positive he understands the A.D.H.D. mind better than any doctor out there. i feel confident that he loves how my mind works, even when it drives me crazy. And i don't think He needs me to pray like everybody else, he wants me to pray like me.
1 Thessalonians 5:17-18 "Pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." This hit home to me recently, because i have been very sick the last few days. Being sick is the worst because i have to be still. There's no choice. (To be quite honest i normally throw myself a little pity party when this happens.) But i started thanking God i was sick, because being sick made me be still, and talk with Him. it made me unbusy my mind. i'm not saying we all need to be sick to talk to God, but sometimes it doesn't hurt to help us change our focus.
i guess i am sharing this because, i feel so blessed to be loved, and understood by a creator that paid it all for me. And it feels pretty darn good for someone to "get" me.
i pray that you hold on to this truth, that all your mumbled or sobbing prayers God gets, and he loves everyone of them. just picture him like i do saying "keep them coming."