My heart had been feeling all these things for a month now, and i was unable to muffle my sadness any longer.
My mother in her loving Godly wisdom listened till i was finished and then responded. "Maybe thats the problem."
"What do you mean?" i sniffed.
"Stop trying to be perfect. Did God call you to be perfect? Did he ask you to be perfect? Do you think He expects that from you?"
Now, . . . . . i know that God does not expect me to be perfect, but in my humanness i was grasping at an unattainable goal. Therefore bringing sadness and pain to my heart. My heart, . . .where my Gods resides was full of hurt and pain.
So after some quiet prayer time and comforting words from my mother i looked up perfect in the Bible, and here is what i found.
2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
Now, i'm not sure i'm at the stage of boasting gladly about my weaknesses, but i'm working on it. But what this did bring me, was just yet another reminder that He is perfect, not me. Nor do i need to be. He knew i would fail, He knew i would mess up, and He knew this all as he died bleeding out on that cross. All the while still chooseing to die for me.
in this wisdom are all my problems solved? No. Am i still going to get my feelings hurt? Yep. We still are living in a sinful world. There are going to be conflicts and disagreements. Feelings are going to get hurt; sadly, that is life. But as a friend of mine recently reminded me, . . . being a Christian is hard, that's why the reward is so great!
So stop trying to be perfect! Look to the one who is perfect! Jesus Christ! i pray you take the pressure off yourself, and lean on Him who made you.
Psalm 18:30 "As for God, His way is perfect:
The Lord's word is flawless;
He shields all who take refuge in him."
As always my prayers are with you all. Thank you for reading, i hope this has brought happiness and peace to you today.
Love in Christ,