We all have triggers. Sometimes it's a word. Sometimes it's a song. Whatever it may be.
Some triggers are nice. Some not so much. And some triggers can be used as the enemy's tool. He can use it to produce feelings of worthlessness, unsuccessfulness, or self hatred. Anything to take our eyes off Christ. Because when our eyes are on us how can we see God?
My trigger? My weight. Any of you that have read my blog before, you know about my anorexic past, and how God has healed me. i think my trigger stems from that. (And i must say i have a feeling i am not alone with this trigger).
My weight. Ugh, i hate my scale. Why do i
i know this all must sound quite dramatic, but i am saddened to confess this is honestly the feelings i face many mornings. The fear of weight, or pounds adding on that silly scale is insurmountable some days. Am i always feeling this way? No, i can go weeks without weighing myself and be fine. But it is my trigger. So, when i am focused on God and His will for my life the number are just numbers, and my stomach is just a stomach. But when i get distracted by the pressures of beauty in this world, my own world gets a little smaller, and all i see is me.
Sometimes in this frame of mind i trick myself into thinking how much happier i would be with a six pack, or hey even just a flat stomach. (i'm baring my soul here, i really can be so caught up in my looks its embarrassing). But you know what? i am exhausted. Worn out. Beat. Just thinking like this make my soul tired and my brain hurt. Where's the peace? Do i really think i would somehow find instant happiness if my jean size was smaller?! And with all this focus on myself i have taking my eyes off the Lord. My Rock, my guide.
Just think about it, what's your trigger? What's one thing that can bring you down faster than a ton of bricks?
Lets remember God choose us, He created us for a purpose. Draw near to Him and He will give you rest. Lay your burdens down. aren't you tired from caring that load?
Now, doesn't that feel better? i pray that we can recognize our triggers, and let them go. Give them to God. Realizing it is the enemys tool to distract us from God's will for our life. We might have to let go of our triggers more than once,(guilty) because sometimes burdens can feel like old friends. But true friends don't let you feel like that, or encourage it. i pray you will seek Christ in all you do, and all that you are.
Blessings and love sent your way.