Ever feel like you are floating in space? Like you can't really grasp onto anything firmly. Like ideas and issues are around you, but you can't give them your 100 percent attention, so they all keep floating unresolved or half dealt with? Well, this is me lately, and i've been struggling with this feeling for awhile now.
Maybe some of you can relate. i'll call it my "mama pressure". What is this? Let me explain, mama pressure is my name for it, there is no scientific definition. it is the pressure i feel is placed on me through society. Pressure to look thin (flat stomach, even after two pregnancies). Pressure to have fresh, healthy, tasty meals for my family. Pressure to keep a clean home. And pressure to be an attentive loving wife to my husband. And somewhere on top of all this find some time for me. Whew, no wonder i am worn out! Anyone have a supermom cape i can borrow?!
So instead of juggling all these balls lately, i have let them drop. Haven't worked out regularly in at least a couple months (probably more than i'm willing to admit), that being said the pounds are adding up on my scale. We have been eating out, making frozen pizzas, and have way too much junk food in this home. My dishes are stacked up in the sink, and lining the counters. i'm at least three loads behind in laundry. And my poor husband had to practically beg me to go out to lunch yesterday. So, i feel it's pretty safe to say i'm failing miserable at the standard for the american mom.
Why do i feel the need to share all this with you along with my dirty laundry? Because i'm pretty sure i'm not alone, and as much as i love pintrest and facebook, i am beginning to wonder if this made it worse?
it is so easy now to not feel good enough, or like you aren't doing enough. All you have to do is click on facebook, and right in your news feed is an article, or picture of the mom with 3 children who has a six pack. Or the mother who has all her months dinners planned out, and she only spent $100. What really stinks, is you don't even need to like a page! if a friend of your does it pops on your news feed! if you are like me, instead of thinking "wow, good for her," we are thinking what is wrong with me that i can't do this. Am i right?
So, now how do we "fix" this? Are you ready? . . . .we can't. God can! Let's start taking the me and i out of this equation. This can be a hard task, and it is going to be a challenge for me. But from now on, i am going to pray i spend the day God wants me to. Let this pray be the first pray before your feet touch the ground in the morning. We can do this!
God created us to be the individuals we are, not a carbon copy of the american standard. Trust me, when we get to the pearly gates, God's not gonna say, "You know, you really didn't achieve that size 6 i asked for." Sounds ridiculous right? Cause it is! And this is what we are doing to ourselves!
So let me be the first. My name is Devonne Ramer, i weigh 170 lbs and 5'8". i have a very creative mind. i love peanut butter and chocolate late at night, and i always try my best to be a good mother and wife!
Own you! Be you!
As always my prayers are with you!
Exodus 33:14 "The Lord replied, "My presence will go with you , and i will give you rest."