He will not know my heartache, he will not know my pain. He will not know how many nights i lie awake crying and praying till the wee morning hours. i will not share his struggle, i will not post his issue. Some day he might read this blog and i want him to know i kept his secrets. His heart is safe with me.
i do want him to know that words can't express my love. i want him to know others go through similar things. i want him to know he is one of many, and God cherishes them all. He is chosen, and for that he will struggle. i want him to know that his story will help others. His struggle will bring him closer to his Savior.
i want him to know i can't fix it, but i will be beside him through the journey. i will try to hold my tongue. i will look to God for my answers. i will do my best to help with what i can.
And for myself, i will try to remain patient with myself, and my shortcomings. i will try to remember i am human, imperfect, and its ok. i will try to forgive myself on this journey, as i know i can't say and do it all right. i will cling to you my Lord through it all.
i post this because i know many of you have been in these situations. i believe this is a mothers heart cry. Love sent to you all We are moms, doing the best we can. Prayers and blessings, Devonne Ramer